It has been a quiet time to be honest, but then again I think that is the same for most. Christmas Day was very weird for me this year because normally I am running around seeing family and friends over this period and I have not really be able to, but I know it is… Continue reading Christmas and New Year. (Part One)

I had an hospital appointment over a week ago now, as been getting a lot of pain in my tummy. It was a rather painful and unusal day as the Doctor rang me as I was trying to check -in at the hospital, and the receptionist was getting rather impatient with me, which is understandable… Continue reading Hospital Appointment

Had my first counselling appointment today and it was very strange. Tonight was very different to how I have had counselling appointments in the past as it was done over the telephone. She was very well spoken and spoke softly and gentle which made me feel at ease even over the phone, she spoke about… Continue reading Counselling Session One

I am finding myself looking at things but not really paying attention to them. As I am sat here staring at this screen, I have realised that I have been staring at it for a long period of time but nothing actually registering with myself that I am supposed to typing, and as I am… Continue reading Zoning out.

What started out as been a simple day turned out to be one of the most fustrating days. Everything was going ok until I had to sort my phone out. A few weeks ago my Face ID stopped working literally over night and I could not get onto any of my apps on my phone,… Continue reading Nightmare of a day.

Thank you 😊 I am shocked at this but thank you to everyone of you that is following my blog, I know it is not consistent at the minute but hopefully when my head gets back into some sort of organised chaos again there will be plenty to write about. Again thank you all for… Continue reading Thank you everyone

At the minute I do not feel, I can not empathise with anyone. As it is coming up to Christmas I should be getting excited about it but instead I am dreading it, because it will be my last Christmas with both my kids under one roof, yes I know they will still come round… Continue reading Having no feelings

Why I am feeling so low that I just can not get myself into the right gear? For the last few weeks I have felt so low that I just do not want to do anything and forcing myself to so just makes me feel worse, I have o energy, no get up and go… Continue reading Why?

Today I have reached out to a mental health company to help me. Today I got in touch with someone from Mind, and I am now awaiting to see someone, I have tried to deal with on my own but it is just getting too much for me to deal with. I know that the… Continue reading I reached out.

I hate who I have become, I hate the feelings I have. I am drowning in my thoughts, my skin is crawling with the demons wanting to take me, the fight is getting harder and harder to deal with, I do not know how to get out, I do not know how to stop all… Continue reading Hating myself.