2021

4th week of December

Wishing you all best for the New Year!

Last week I left the blog on a bit of a low note because I just was not feeling myself and could not find the energy to do anything. This week however is a bit of an exciting week because……………….

…………………..We are heading upto Scotland for just over 2 weeks, but will go into more detail in the new year blog. I am still unsure on weather to do my blogs weekly next year or go monthly with there been a lot on. Guess youll find out next year hahaha.

As we recover from Christmas but head into the New Year and our spirirts are lifed with all this new intentions we all have for ourselves, but we must all not put so much pressure on ourselves and just go with the flow of life.

If it is one thing that I have learnt is that, if you put pressure on yourself then everything starts to go wrong and then we become deflated by not been able to stick to the goals we have put in place. I have learnt this the hard way over the years and best advice I can say is small chunks is enough. The smaller the task the easier everything else will be. Please do not take on more than you can handle, because then your feeling will be overwhelming and you will just crash before you can get started.

As this year is almost over I have had a quick read of some of my earlier blogs and all I can say is wow I can not believe how much my mental health has changed. I know my triggers and I am knowing myself better, it has been a long journey and I know that it is a part of me for the rest of my life but, I think that knowing what everything is and what triggers me, I am able to manage better. I am still on the medication but looking at possibly coming of them next year at some point.

If I was to give anyone any advice of this path whether it be similar or totally different the choices are the same pretty much and you have the choice, you have the choice to better yourself or not, you have the choice to deal with it or not, but whatever you choose to do, do it because you want to and not because you have to. I have learnt that not everyone understands what is going on with me and that is ok. It is also OK NOT TO BE OK. If you have days that you are struggling and just want time out from life. Then do so, I do. Like last week I had 2-3 days were I just could not deal with anything and took that time out for myself to do what I needed.

I choose to seek help and I choose to deall with everything that has been going on in my life and yes I still have a long road ahead but I am thankful to those that have stuck around and stayed by side in my darkest hour when i wanted to end everything, the hurt, the voices, the pain, the past, and everything else in between. I would like to thank each one of you a big massive thank you for showing me that life is worth living if you choose the right action and it is because of you I am now living my best life and looking forward to my future for the first time in a long time.

So here is to the future and having a business of my very own.

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