June/July

This week has not been to bad.

Had an hospital appointment half way through the week to finally get my tummy seen to and hopefully get a date for an operation to get this mesh out. This was a very informative appointment and now i have to wait for a specialist from Newcastle hospital. So do not know how long I am going to have to wait for that to come through but hopefully it wont be to long.

A lot has been going through my mind lately and I have a lot to sort through and still not sure how I am able to deal with a lot of it. But I am slowly sorting through and I am slowly learning that I am strong enough to deal with what is going on in my head as well as my past. Hoping to make all the things I have had to deal with in my life come to and end and be able to breathe with ease.

I have talked about a few of my triggers and where they have come from but there is still a lot that i need to talk about from my childhood. Even though I do not remember much of my child hood I am starting to think that, that may be I do not want to remember everything and the memories I do have have is to sort through the bad ones and embrace the good ones more.

Finally got to meet my granddaughter and oh my days she is a stunner, full of smiles and laughs already and making noises which is so cute. Other than that nothing much more to report on my daughter and granddaughter.

I am still finding it hard to confront when it is need with certain people, and I am not sure how I am going to be able to get to my root cause of this because I think it is a number of things but I can not pin point it just yet so when I get to that I will write about it.

Sorry this is short and sweet head just not in to writing at the moment.